When you change your thoughts, you change your world.

First Entry! Life is good :)

"You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself" -Alan Alda

I've only started to feel real joy when I've finally accepted my past and embraced what I became of it. That our troubled times give our depth as a person. It took me time to find my way here and I guess I've only got experience, family and friends to thank for that.

Baking cakes, breads and other pastries have always been my sanctuary, an escape from the harsh reality I was previously exposed to and now, I'm finally pursuing it as my career, how unreal! why the heck not right? I may feel frightened or lost but I would honestly rather feel this while heading towards the right direction. Paving my own road to happiness and enjoying the journey :)

But before I found my way...

I was living in the shallow end of my soul for many years, throughout my teen years actually. 

I found (unknowingly shallow) happiness in going out, partying, #drinkdrankdrunk, money, brands, jewelries, having a big circle of friends and a boy that pampered and protected me.

BOY WAS I SO WRONG.

I didn't know how lost I was.

It certainly did bite me in the end. Life had a way of snapping me out of that mentality... by fly kicking me to the harsher side of reality. I was a broken person after it all that I honestly thought I was better off dead. I waited for happiness to come to me when really, It is a way of travel and not a destination.

We can easily get so lost in the shallow things that we forget that there is much more inside of us to discover, that we are more valuable than the material things we are surrounded with or the number on the scale! hehe.

Our inner intuitions, thoughts and dreams that can be really something beautiful if we choose to explore and dig deep into our core.

While exploring you might find yourself too, like I did. I never planned on pursuing the patisserie course but I did, and it has given my life a new meaning, a new direction.

I also somehow trekked my way from being an extrovert to an introvert, and what I found was wonderful! What I found was my true self :)

2014 have really turned the tables for me, finally and for good! I've never seen the future any clearer and have never been more grateful of the things that I have now.

I enjoy time alone, sitting by the window, writing, reading books and a smaller circle of family and friends which are honestly the only ones I can ever need in my life :)

I found joy in the ordinary.

I no longer feel the need attend to unnecessary conversations or people, guess this is what time valuing means!

Sometimes we become unaware that our surroundings can be the source of our stress, so I've resolved that by cutting out certain people, as selfish as it sound but it's your life and you choose how to live it.☺

I am no longer phased by the material things and how much money someone else makes because I've discovered the real meaning of happiness... it is within us. Doing what we love and being surrounded by people who will only lift us higher.

I don't see the richest people the happiest anymore. These were only crystallised thoughts until recent experience solidified that the more money and power you have, the more problems and responsibilities you are going to face and that is stressful.

I am happy and content that I'm doing something I absolutely love. I don't have to be the wealthiest person, I know I'll find success when I discover more of my inner happiness, and I'm on that pursuit now :)

Thank you experience, for my once lost, self, for the wrong people I surrounded myself with

that I am right where I'm meant to be, and want to be! I've found life's true meaning and I'm on a pursuit of going to the depths of it :)

❤